It is appropriately Monday.

Is it just me, or do your kids ever look at you like this?

I am totally stealing this quote from my friend Jill's blog:

I have observed, though, in these past few days when I have felt on the brink of losing my mind, the moments when I feel a bit more pieced together again.
The people I have spent time with in the past few days have no idea how just the acts of engaging in adult conversation, receiving a friendly hug, or offering a sympathetic nod have strengthened me, fortified me, and helped me weave the shreds of my soul back together again.

I wish that I had written that.  Because that is exactly how I am feeling.

Oftentimes I read something and think, that is what I think too, they just wrote it a lot better than I ever could have.  I am not a writer, I actually started blogging as a way to better keep in touch with loved ones far away years ago.  It has developed into a way of journaling life, a hobby of sorts.  I like to keep my blog on the upbeat side, not because I want to act like life is perfect because it most certainly is not.  It is more that I am not gifted much in the way of expressing my emotions in written form and if I can't do it as I would like to, sometimes I would rather say nothing at all.  I know it is terrible.  I am trying to work on it though. 

I feel pulled into a million different directions these days.  All good.  Or mostly, anyway.  

Neil and I had been checking into a local Christian school for Evan for the past few weeks.  Homeschooling has been very challenging for the both of us, and I was ready to be d-o-n-e with it.  I prayed that God would close the door if that wasn't where He wanted Evan for now.  And you know what?  He did.  He closed the door in a very clear way.  When I found out, I wanted to get in bed, cover my head, and cry.  This is so very much not what I wanted.  But He did answer my prayer.  Even if it wasn't the answer I wanted, I still do desire to be faithful to what He has called me to do for right now.  So I put on my big girl pants and am getting back to it.  Just another manic Monday.